44th - without any thought or reason...

hello all

i'm spent - more on that later. i'm an marathon insomniac. i can either laze around for a few days or i can go hyper active for a couple of days less. this up and down stuff in very very bothersome and hard to deal with. waiting sucks. rooms designated to that purpose suck. all things about waiting sucks. it keeps you away from whatever is coming your way. good or bad. it's just a filler in-between. it's nothing and it's useless. doing nothing is better than waiting because then at least you're choosing to waste your time and life away by your own accord, not by someone else's.

yesterday was interesting. i was on the highway coming back from a relatively long day at work when i get a call saying my dad fainted and paramedics are in route. by the time, i got there, he was fine. he was sitting in a chair - just seems a little shaken. paramedics took him to the hospital anyway - followed. this was a little after five in the evening. i spent a few hours running back and forth between my dad and updating family at home. later on, i get news that my cousin fell on some ice [bad weather yesterday - fun story with that later] and had a mild concussion. he arrived at the same hospital. dad got released at a little after one. he's fine. i took dad home and the other "grown ups" went home as well and i came back to hang with my cousins while we waiting the long wait that sure to come since he was a code green which means not severe. we were expecting to be there til morning but we actually got out around 4am, which was a huge time saver. he was fine too. mild concussion. nothing too serious. to celebrate, we went to markham station for breakfast. which was the only meal i'd had for a good day and half - minus this wicked awesome brownie, which i'll discuss later. i didn't enjoy my meal that much but i was starving you can taste much when you inhale food.

oh this was fun - while i was at work, i was walking up to my car and i learned. you just can't save bad drivers from themselves. this chick in a red hummer managed to slide her car while making a right turn right across into the valet parking booth, destroying half of it. her car was essentially unscratched. this begs a few questions. one - how did you manage to slide a hummer going thirty km an hour? are you aware of how heavy that car is? why are you driving if you can't negociate a simple right turn at low speed safely? how did you, being that inteligent afford that car? if paid for by daddy, could you give me his number so i coulk smack him a few times for not aborting you when he had the chance? ok - this was more than two questions, but honestly. this is giving godo women drivers a bad name.

i was walking around yorkdale and i was talking to shiv on the phone - this chick walks by wearing a tiny little jacket and mesh top underneath. the jacket isn't doing it's job and my head goes, "hey, boobies" and my head turns and then as i was looking away, i notice her giving me a dirty look. comon lady! you're displaying your boobs in a mall. how are you not expecting people to look? even shiv agreed that she would look. not because we're horn dogs or anything but because it's boobs in public. "if i go out dressed like that, not that i do, i am expecting people to look. i would be offended nobody looked!" says shivali. honestly, chicks that whore-out. it's sexy when we're thinking about what you have as compared to when you're displaying it to everyone. it also ruins the fun of finding out what you have.

YES! i don't have work super early in the morning tomorrow - i get to sleep in . assuming, i get to sleep. sometimes, i think he hates me. i can't figure out why though.

is it me, or are there a lot more chicks smoking now. i think almost every chick i've met in the past few months smokes. even when i'm wandering around at work. so many chick smokers. to the point of outnumbering the men. someone find me stats on this. stats in canada. toronto would be better.

winter is my second favourite time of year. i think it's because of the snow. i was driving around today and it was snowing and i ended up starting up at the snow while it's coming down. it's very. . . i don't know. i think that's one of my favourite things, especially at night. when you're driving somewhere, i generally up until recently have always been in the passenger seat from where it's much more enjoyable and you just watch the rush by you as it's falling down. you feel so isolated from everything else. it's just you and whomever is with you. i think the only appropriate word for it would be, enchanting.

the brownie - so, in the middle of my day yesterday, i walked by the pickle barrel and in their case, there was this brownie. i had to have it, so i used some of my gas money and got it. brownie, with big brownie and chocolate chunks on top and a layer of caramel. i don't go all nutty over desserts, like some people i know - you know who you are. seriously, the moaning sounds while eating are disturbing. a simple mmmMMmm is fine but when it turns into something much more audible than that, where people start taking note, you've crossed the line.


i'm debating watching domino or the exorcism of emily rose. one will put me to sleep in about ten minutes and the other i'll watch till the end. tough choice. ok, i'm off to make that choice.

be good.

p.s. this came up yesterday at hospital while we were bored. we can all thank sach's dad for this one. without looking it up in anyway, define benevolent [don't be a smartass and say 'a state of benevolence']. here's my theory. i see benevolence as righteousness. someone who means to and tries to do good.

p.s. i used the word dictator and god in the same sentence.

p.s. don't forget about the hobbit feet. i already have people in mind.