195th - Putting away old things.

been there, done that, learnt the worst of lessons
 want to be loved for who we appear to be, instead of who we are.
The Beat that my Heart Skipped - Dan le Sac 

I'm thinking about change. Well, kinda of. I was thinking about ending this blog and everything else related to Sixth Lie. I've been toying with this thought for a couple of hours. 

I've been running under this name for a really long time now. Around the end of grade seven. It was a weekend, so school was still in session. That's around thirteen years. It's been a while. Fek, I'm old. So, I had the thought to start new. Then I thought, I like my digital pseudonym. 

I don't remember the date, but I remember that whole day pretty vividly. I remember waking up completely alert, my bed sheets (horrifying ugly brown check patter), going down to my computer. I changed my ICQ handle, got a new email address and we were off. There was very little thought that day. I just did things. It was a strange day. It helped that online identity wasn't too complicated then; it's gotten a bit more elaborate.

Elementary school was interesting. I can now recount two little epiphany moments. The other one was in grade six. Which I'm so very happy about.

Wow. I'm just rambling for no reason. To summarize, I may or may not be stopping this blog and all other things Sixth Lie related. If I do, I may or may not start new ones. This was a pointless blog.

20 minutes later..

I've made decisions!

I don't have very many old things. My online pseudonym is one of them. So, I'm keeping it. I may drop the "Lie" bit and just keep "Sixth". I'll figure that out later.

I am going to end this blog though and start something new. Maybe do my own website and have a blog on there. I wonder if I can move this archive over there. I really did wanna reach 200 with this one.

Fun Fact: I started getting this stagnant sort of feeling a few days ago after I was talking to my friend and she mentioned that I used to write a lot and was pretty good. Then I started thinking about all the other stuff I don't do anymore that I used to be really into. Then I got bummed out. I'm going to work on that. Try to be a more well-rounded person.

I hope you enjoyed a semi-circular blog about nothing at all and I hope you enjoyed reading my rant about mostly nothing over the years.

I'm about to quote Bilbo. "-this is the END. I am going. I am leaving NOW. GOOD-BYE!' Admit it, deep down inside, we've all wanted to say that at some point.


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